Transition Center

right after coming back to Ames from the cashman's house, i went to see Evangeline off for the very last time. i am hoping this will not be the last time, but will surely be the last one in Ames. i am on my way out as well.
it's not easy to say goodbye like this...to someone that for the whole time i act like i dont care. Deep down, i know we have been having to many good time together, sharing too much with each other: happiness, pride, anger, sadness, and the darkest secrets. For a friend like this, even a hug seems too emotional, but yet far less than enough.

i cant remember anymore..how do we become so close  and ended up using the same facebook profile picture? how do we start talking about God? everything seems to start from there.

but i cant remember.

but she hugged me before she left compare to the first time she left for st.louis she would not want to hug me.her family's car is fully packed, she sat at the back with millions of things resting on her. suddenly, something started blinking and making noises. it's her stupid transformer. from toy studio. from the period of time i dont want to do a project together with her, from the period of time that i always gave her a lecture. I told her to get the transformer in goodwill. now the transformer is way too solar powered that it's not gonna keep quiet for the rest of the trip.

we will still keep in touch. one day, she will make her way to new york or boston. and me, idk by the time she's in Boston or new york, where will i be. maybe in the states, or europe, or australia, or mid east. i willl still tell her my happiness, my anger, my pride, my sadness, and those darkest secrets.

peace out girl scout. :)
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Cant really say goodbye to anybody.
this might be the last time to see jason as well.
well...he can still come to my graduation.
it's hard when "i have kicked him around for entire 2 years."....and now i have to say goodbye.
so i just turned back and said goodbye on my way out. just like any other days in the past. it's like..the next time i come to COD, he will still be there, he is always there.
but no, the next time, he wont be there.

6.11pm miss call from Jason.
but i cant call back cuz i will just endup crying....not sure why...but yes i will....
such an emotional panda.

sometimes i wonder, how do i even graduate? i will be crying so hard everyday that i have to be away from the people that i have "kicked around for 4+years."
it's come to the point that everybody is on their way out.

how do i say goodbye?