I havent been posting anything for so long, probably cuz theres plenty of things to keep me busy or happy. and today, when i get back here to post something, i am not feeling well.
i am not cranking/chilling in studio right now. i am in that little room that i havent been in for about 2 years. I remember the time i stayed up straight 2 nights cranking for a mid review, and i havent been back ever since. and now i am back. This room has been abusively used. Stuffed with many junks. I can no longer find the light switch anymore. just let it remain dark. i feel safer this way anyways.
and today I am really not feeling well. i indeed laid too much of myself out there, that people see all of me and want to take advantage of it. Even it's simply playing, i want to play with sincere, seriousness, and honesty. apparently not the whole world agrees with me.so i get hurt. or maybe that's just stupidness. Fine. it will all be ok at the end.
Sometimes, today. i feel that i had abusively used the love that some people offered me. To an extend that these love is taken away from me now. i cant say that i am mad. but i am sad.
oh well.
with all those good things happening in my life this semester, the only thing that i wish i could have done better was to walk closely with my heavenly father, follow his will, and listen not to my own desire. and i am still thankful that i learned my lessons in a way that is not too hurtful.
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