stressssssssssssssssssssssssssssssed

So i am fairly stressed. let me just tell you what i ate for dinner and you would be able to know how restless
i am now.
 i ate..doritos, a bowl of rice (which i seldom do) some HYVEE CHINESE...which means some greasy fat chicken....and a crappy bowl of soup. i would have ate a cake too...but i was worrying if i end up wasting time taking a nap after dinner...that will not be good.
so yeah...i am stressed....GRE issues are sooooo hard!!!!!!!!!
gr...well..only a week from now. I am gonna gooooo shopppping after my GRE test.!!!! this is my only motivation right now...

keep writing ....keep fighting....

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Although right now i am pretty comfortable just spending the time by myself doing things that i will be proud of later on. sometimes dirty thoughts sill hit me  and distract me.
I tend to think that i am not good, anyone else is better, whatever anybody else has is better, whatever decision anybody else made is better. I tend to not accept who i am, what i like. I thought architecture should just be COOL...not cute. BUT.whatever i do...tends to be lovely....well...in most cases. sometimes it's aloof too , i guess. @.@
and whenever i think i am better.....i will feel sorry later on. cuz that's just arrogant. .. A true lady should be meek and gentle and smart. always put on a smiley face.

will you still like me.....and my work...if one day you found out i am nothing but a teddy bear hugger?

well not sure why i uploaded these pictures. I am just homesick for a period of time that i am proud of who i am...enjoy what i do, and proud of what i did.

MAN!! this is just last semester..and i am talking like a 40 year old lady........

happy making...always:)