My God Story

It takes long to finally be able to word my god story. It's been 3 years since I became a Christian, one year since i fell for it. But i found it hard to actually tell my god story, cuz god knows how hard it is! He has been working in every little detail in my life to bring me closer and closer.
The other day at FUSION, we walked over a bridge that symbolizes the relationship between us and god. And oops i almost fell off it. It will be funny if i did, but at the same time i knew how many times i had been attempted to turn away from god. It was the Christians around me that pull me back.
3 years ago I was in Andrew and Ashley...Tom and Wendy's family group. At around the same time, I ended up a relationship with someone that's been lying to me for the entire time( well..this is more complictate than i just said, but i am just gonna put it this way so that the story doesnt need to get expanded). Anyways that has been a hard time to me, and i have been crying for days. Not because how much i like this person, but more because i suddenly realize how dark-minded can a person be; how fake can a person be. He destroyed my wonderland where i grew up. haha. During that time, i wanted to quit family group and just stay by myself to heal my wound. I told Ashley, and she came to talk to me on a Sunday afternoon. That was Nov.7.2007. She looked like an angel coming down for me, speaking God's words. That day i gave my life to Jesus Christ. When there's so many great people around me, why do i want to give all my focus to the people that hurts me. I know i want to be parts of the great people. 4 month later, i got baptized in cornerstone church.
The summer after i turned 21 went a little wild. I started drinking, not a lot, but more than i had ever had. I knew something was wrong. I hang out with people that drink and party at the same time i am still around in church. One day I posted my facebook status as:  I am confused, what does being a Christian reallly mean if it's not just being nice. The next day I got on facebook. and my friend sent me a messaged, and I burst into tears. :) i really did, and i cried everytime i read it. he probably doesnt know how much it helps to bring my life back to Jesus Christ. Oh yesh, Professor Brent, Blanket, Westphal. ( I really want to mention his name here. he's such a great friend. :)) This message meant a whole lot for me, cuz he's not just a Christ follower but at the same time an architecture student the same year as me. I guess he gets the chance to have closer look at me. He sees me sin. And when i was lost in between architecture life and God, Brent came up and set a model for me. The semester followed was a tough yet great semester. I think it's great cuz with all that difficulties, uneasiness, challenges, craziness, I fell for god.
I went to Salt co. retreat that year for an unknown reason.It's more like I dont have any excuse to say no to my friends. So I went to the retreat, and was amazed by how god has been doing in everybody's life.  It's so true, so real, and so beautiful. That semester I teamed up with 4 other students for a huge project. And John Graham was one of them. I dont know if there's any word better than self-sustainable to describe him. John is the kinda kid that is calm and loving. He has dry humors, as dry as potatoes. He does get mad/dissappointed/over the edge sometimes, especially when facing a spoiled only-child. It was him that reads me bible, telling me the truth every now and then, oh and "discipline" me. I admitt that I was actually feeling hurt after the entire semester. I thank god our friendship did not get destroyed and that we will be able to forgive each other. "forgive, and then you will be forgiven."
Farily recently, i am a little jealous of the non-christian life cuz they can do whatever they want to do . Yet i know that i dont want to live like that. I would regret to live a life according simply to flesh and to feeling. It's not easy when you like a guy that only wants to have sex with you. I knew I was falling for him, but at the same time i know i should obbey god's commandment. I dont want to disobey God, no!no!no! There has been a battle for almost 2 month. I have to kick the guy that i like out of my life. Trust me, it's not easy. I read Intersect 2010 recently from cornerstone. In lots of people's god story they talked about growing up in a broken family, being physically or sexually abused. This type of thing has been really far away from me. I never knew anyone growing up in such situation, and cant imagine one either. I suddenly realize that God has been doing a really good job protecting me. You know things happens....That guy could have raped me, and if we see each other more, i could have gone into worse situations. And I thank god for keeping me away from him. I had been praying to god what i should do, praying for a clear mind to stay close with god. and look! God has already told me what to do! I would still be praying for him, hoping someday he can be made right as well. oh and thanks for those who prayed for me. :)
I think this will be my god story, and yes these are the few stories from hundreds of my stories with God and his people. I always feel stronger when i know there's people with me and praying for me. and ...Just thank God for what he has been doing. <3